Today was a GOOD day!

"Just wakin up in the mornin, gotta thank God/I dunno but today seems kinda odd" ~Ice Cube

So I woke up this morning excited about what the day had in store for me, and it did not disappoint. I stepped outside my box and into a new one...and in all my days I never would've thought that I would have ended up in this place, with this person. It's funny the twist and turns life takes, I know more and more daily that I am not just trying convince myself that I am this Bitch/Asshole, but that I truly have transmogrified into a new ME! Today was SOOOO much fun, and just another layer I can add to my life experiences...I've done quite a bit of new things over the past 10 months and I look forward to the many more that will follow. Today's experience served as a HUGE confidence booster and quite frankly gave the Bitch and the Asshole more ammunition and more fuel for their FIRES.

State of MINE!

So things have been good lately...life is on an upward track and I am looking at the world through rose colored glasses! I am WELL taken care of on a myriad of levels and perspectives...I wake up daily with a smile on my face and am able to maintain that smile through numerous trials and tribulations by reflecting on the WONDERFUL people who are a part of my life. Life isn't perfect, but I know that this is one of those times where life is damn near perfect. I am living by the mantra that "what goes around, comes around" and that karma will do ALL my dirty work for me. And to be completely honest, it is actually quite fun and a huge turn on for me to personify karma...I'm in a place where I can have ALL of the fun and NONE of the stress, let someone else worry about all that ish. Any who, I'm rambling now...so I will leave this blog on this note:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong doings. It does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres." ~1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

*P.S. To the Streets and the Tweets who are reading this, please make sure you FULLY comprehend before you RUN TELL THIS presuming and surmising to understand me!*

Guess Who's Bizack!

So here I am after a brief, but well needed hiatus...and i have to say that I am in a good place right now. I have struggled thru the last year or so...struggled to accept the state of my life, my trials & tribulations, my happiness. But the release of certain cares, certain loves, and certain expectations has allowed me to move forward in a new light. I have FULLY embraced the Bitch that lives and resides within me and given her a new partner in crime - Asshole. I am sure that some may think, i have low self-esteem or self-worth for referring to myself as words that society typically associates with negativity, but as I have said time and again, we are the ones who give words POWER! Therefore, I am taking back the power i have relinquished to others for so many years. Yeah, I am a BITCH...i can be rude, crude and downright disrespectful and you know what I DON'T CARE what anyone thinks anymore. Caring too much has pushed me in the past to be nice to people i don't like, to be fake and I have never been fake. Trying to fit into social circles has pushed me to be nice even when I didn't feel comfortable and has even caused me to disregarded my best instincts.

In comes the ASSHOLE...the asshole in me forces me to remain true to myself, makes me realize that i don't have to FIT in or conform, cause at the end of the day NO ONE else matters! The asshole permits me to embrace the right now, and forget about the past...hence, the asshole also saves lives cause if left purely to the devices of the BITCH i would have hurt, harmed, or injured a few deserving skanks and hoes.

It is all about check and balances...and i think i have found mine. I don't bite my tongue any more, it has only served to back fire on me in the past. I say what I mean and I mean what I say...I don't pretend to like you when I don't and I don't wear a mask for anyone. If i fuck with you then you know it, no confusion about it. I support those who support me and I live MY life MY way and by MY rules!